Christmas Blues

Merry Christmas.

Though for some reason I’m not feeling the spirit…at all.

Maybe it has to do with how busy I’ve been the last 3 months, as well as moving all my stuff, feeling like I don’t really belong any one place and I don’t know what to call home right now. That I’m super anxious about finding a new job.

And everyone is excited for Lindy Focus…but I kinda just want to make it through in one piece. I’m not particularly thrilled about the thousands of people I’ll be bumping shoulders with, even if a fraction of that mass is my friends.

“Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” is my favorite Christmas song. It’s hopeful. But bittersweet. Almost melancholic. This version captures how I feel.