Forced Sleep Procrastination

More often these days, I find myself watching something, movie, tv show, internet video, on my computer until I fall asleep. I realize I procrastinate on making myself go to sleep because if I do try to close my eyes and go to sleep like normal people, I end up alone with my thoughts and my conscience is really fucking loud and noisy. Accusatory. Belittling. Hateful. So it’s easier to distract my mind with something else until I tire out and fall asleep as a result.

But then sometimes I have to wake up early the next morning so I’ve no choice but to receive the blunt end of my self-loathing.

And when I wake up, my mind picks up right where we left off. It’s a great way to start the day.


2 Comments on “Forced Sleep Procrastination”

  1. lydia says:

    smoke weed. burn essential oils. run a lot.

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